Proud

Is it ok to be proud?
It seems arrogant...
ESPECIALLY if its about yourself and you blog about it...

But I admit to being a bit narcissistic so that makes it ok right...

Or maybe if I assure you I am proud in a humble, grateful sort of way....which I am
But  I'm also just proud because it was hard and I pushed through and did it and I have earned the right to be proud...

All this proudness stems from the fact that a year ago I was 25lbs heavier than I am now...
But I haven't been 25lbs lighter for a year...yet.

I lost the 25 from mid July to early Sept. riding bikes and changing my diet.
And then the weather went to pot and the sun went to bed earlier and the garden froze and I was terrified of the dark, carb loaded winter that lay ahead of me.

So I resolved to run...and avoid those dang yummy carbs

I don't love running...but I also love being down 2 sizes and I do love having more muscle tone

I don't love gaining weight...I don't love running...but I REALLY don't like gaining what I had lost...

So I ran...

Faithfully

Thanksgiving  .... I ran

Christmas ... I ran

Jan - March dull drums... I ran

And while there were times when I dropped a couple more lbs and gained them back I never went above my 25lb mark

and for that I am proud!

And now it seems the sun has decided to stay out awhile longer and occasionally it stops raining and I am able to get some riding in.

Every year since I don't know when this is the time I fret about spring/summer clothes. Nothing fits, I'm fat I need to lose weight before I'm the fat girl on the boat again...I hate myself and beat myself up... and I never achieved anything.

While I CLEARLY will never be where my mind wants me to be ( 16 year old legs without spider veins, stretch marks or cellulite ) I am proud to be where I am this spring because it was HARD!

But worth it!

I did recently see a cartoon on FB where someone said something like...

I have realized my original weight is never gonna happen!
7lbs 14 ozs is jut not realistic!

LOL!

So thanks for letting me be proud.  I don't know how long it will last...I'm hoping to drop another 10 this summer.

And now for a picture...

Thanks for reading!

Frychik